MY DEPRESSION

    In the beginning of 2008 I started to struggle with daily life. Driving a big rig was
something I had always dreamed of doing. I had been doing it for 13 yrs. and
enjoyed it. All of a sudden that joy was gone. My life started to unravel in ways
I never thought possible.
    My marriage was as strong as ever. My faith was going good. Why can't I keep
from crying?
    Why am I thinking of suicide?
    Why am I so empty inside?
    I for the first time in my life, was a total WRECK.
    I told my counselors, that I felt like I was laying flat on the floor in front of the
THRONE OF GOD, prostrate, hands out, face down, helpless before my GOD.
    I found out that is where the healing began. I can't. GOD CAN.
    I spent 6 months healing from that depression, every time I think on it now, tears
well up in my eyes. Not tears for all the pain that I went through. Not tears for what
my wife had to endure. NO, YOU REALLY HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THIS.
    My tears are for, how much GOD LOVES ME. HE LOVED ME ENOUGH TO
PUT ME DOWN. HE LOVED ME ENOUGH TO GIVE ME A WIFE, FOR
BETTER OR FOR WORSE. HE LOVED ME ENOUGH TO BE THERE, WHILE
I WALKED THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH.

 I WILL YELL IT FROM THE HIGHEST PLACES.   
I WILL NEVER STOP TELLING OTHERS OF HIS LOVE.
HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME.